“Are You Okay?” Vs “You’re Okay!”


As we climb the stairs, Lars trips on the top one. My heart stops still. My mouth starts to open, but then I pause and take a deep breath.

I’m standing behind him, and even after a couple of years, it is still work for me not to say, “Oh no! Ouch!” in these moments.

But since I’ve been consciously trying to change my reaction, he bounces up and says, “I’m fine, Mom!” all on his own.

As soon as he started tumbling and walking, I’ve used the question “Are you okay?” when he gets hurt. This is much different than telling him, “You’re okay. You’re okay.”

Both of these phrases try to accomplish the same thing: resiliency.

But in asking him what his body is feeling, the emphasis is on assessing and responding appropriately to his own feelings instead of being informed of his feelings or looking to me and my reaction to figure out if he should be hurt.

And yes, there was a time where he was “working” with this idea. Sometimes I thought he could be exaggerating his response to my “Are you okay?” – but I knew that is his way of checking if I was consistent in my reaction.

Asking him if he’s okay has paid off.  He immediately gets up and judges for himself if he’s hurt. And most of the time he keeps going! This is the definition of resiliency for me.

Using “Are you okay” has also instilled empathy. If I get hurt, Larsen’s first reaction is to ask if I am okay.  It’s sweet to hear.

This has been an example of what I call counterintuitive parenting.  Contrary to my first thought of telling him “You’re tough” or “You’re okay, You’re okay” after a fall so he would hear it and adopt it as his inner response, I made the small shift to asking instead of informing, and it has made a huge difference.

The Lions at Night

As we wrestle Lars to get in bed, just to lie still as we read books – something startles me.

My mother’s voice jolts into my head: “When you become a mother, you will never know a love like the one you have for your children. But you will also have a fear like you have never known.”

Yes, once I became a mother, the incessant worry came. Actually, as soon as I found out I was pregnant, anxiety was closer to me than my shadow.

I’ve learned fear is like a little kid determined to grapple with his parents over bedtime. Fear wants us to give up, to feel powerless, to burden us when we are the most tired.

We plead with Lars, reminding him his body will be too tired tomorrow to play. We tell him we will be too tired to play with him if we don’t get to bed.  Nothing works.  The room is dimly lit, his bed is covered in fluffy quilts, and we just finished his favorite show.

If he could just be still for a moment, I’m sure the fatigue would overcome him. He keeps talking about the lions coming to get him so we need to run instead of get in the bed. The tv show he just watched was about lions – how they ward off predator attacks. I ask him if he’s pretending or is he really worried about lions coming into the bedroom. He assures me he just playing pretend.

Maybe we shouldn’t let him watch tv before bed. Maybe we shouldn’t let him sleep so late in the mornings. Maybe there’s nothing we can do because he’s a night owl.  Maybe it’s not on us to change at all. Maybe it’s more about acceptance.

Just like I cannot force a child to sleep, I can’t force fear to vanquish.

“Our bodies are telling us we are tired,” I remind him again. “If you’re not tired yet, you can either play in your room or lie with us in the bed.”

If pleading or reasoning hasn’t worked, maybe giving him choices will.

He leaves for his room. I shut my eyes for the moment, happy for a break from the work of nighttime parenting.  As soon as I still myself, fear comes creeping in.

Lars is too quiet. What’s going on? Has he somehow strangled himself with something? Was there something I forgot to childproof in his room? Has he fallen and hit his head? Is he scared of the dark hall, so he’s rocking in the corner frightened of lions? I shouldn’t have left him alone for a moment I think.

I am still not used to how my mind runs through the list of possible bad scenarios the moment Larsen leaves my side.

The eternal fretting is immediate as soon as there is quiet. This is motherhood. Mom was right.

My neurons are fried.  It seems as if I am always in fight mode, a momma bear ready to wreak havoc on the world if something happens to my baby.  And I think a thousand times a day about how fragile his life is – and mine.

I’ve bargained with the gods, made promises that I won’t let a minute pass without being thankful, I’ve reasoned with myself, I’ve followed suggestions about limiting my worries to ten minutes a night. Nothing works. If I don’t prepare for the worst, how can I ever deal with something bad happening?

Why do I have to live in this half-world, one foot in utter gratitude and one foot in trepidation?

Lars is as persistent as fear when the day becomes dark.  I get frustrated by all the things I’ve tried that don’t work.

After fifteen minutes of quietly playing in his room, Lars comes in. “I’m ready to rest now, Mom.”

His little body climbs over me, pressing his long arms into my abdomen. He shuffles a bit, then settles in between his dad and me under the down comforter.

Mike wraps his arm around him and whispers, “I’ll protect you from the lions…I will protect Mommy too.”

I layer my arm over Mike’s, hoping to make a barrier between Lars’ fears of big cats and my issues with my looming frailty.  “And I’ll protect you and Daddy too,” I say.

But I understand right then I am lying. I can’t ever save Larsen or Mike in this universe. I can’t stop the world from taking away life at a moment’s notice. Of course, I will always try – my mind on an endless loop preparing for how things can go wrong, running through the exhausting list of severities I would have to experience when things do go wrong.

It’s at that moment I realize I will never be doing the saving. Lars is really saving me.

I look over his perfect face – amazed at what his dad and I created together, his dark eyes finally calm and dropping, his jaw relaxed, his mind tranquil. I reach for his hand.

I mentally beg for our safety, for the children and parents of the world to be safe. I know it won’t happen, but I secretly hope if I ask for everyone’s fears to be relinquished, my unselfishness would buy me more points.

I was swallowed in the vastness of fear for the last few moments, and now he is here ready to comfort me.  Just his presence calms me.

After having a child, fear has become a bigger part of life, but so has gratitude.

For tonight, we are together, we are here, safe from the lions. I shut my eyes, clenching for dear life this little boy’s hand, hoping he won’t feel the weight I’ve placed on him, and I surrender to the darkness.

Toys, Guns, and Fear

We recently opened a Han Solo Star Wars figurine that my two-year-old son was given to find not one plastic gun – but seven. SEVEN! I look at this toy, and I’m completely overwhelmed. I’m not ready to face the guns issue yet. I haven’t even sorted out my own beliefs about them – how am I going to approach this with my young son?

Larsen asks what they are. I ignore him. I don’t want to lie, but I don’t want to introduce something I am not ready for him to learn.

Guns scare me. I see those tiny fake weapons, and my thoughts scatter as I search for a way to balance both my desire to instill non-violent beliefs in my son as well as dealing with a very real need to feel protected in my home.

I first think about how I overheard a mother of three young boys say, “Boys will turn anything into a gun. “Even a sandwich,” she said. “They will take a bite, turn it sideways, and their hands will be on the trigger.” “Boys will be boys,” she continued.

Her husband was an avid hunter – I love that my husband isn’t. Not only is he former military with extensive gun training, but also he grew up with his grandfather teaching him respect for guns, not seeing them as an extension of his uniquely-male dominating power.

I know gun ownership is a multifaceted subject. I think of what author Sam Harris said: “I am surrounded by otherwise intelligent people who imagine that the ability to dial 911 is all the protection against violence a sane person ever needs.”

My mind also thinks of Libertarians who are concerned with stricter gun control laws because it concentrates power in the few (military/police), which threatens the freedom of the many (citizens).

Then, I think about the writer Sean Faircloth when he states: “Firearm assaults on female family members, and intimate acquaintances are approximately twelve times more likely to result in death than are assaults using other weapons. Two-thirds of women killed by spouses are killed with guns.”

I also think about my friend who got shot in the face at a high school party. A former student, now a Marine reservist, was there showing off two of his own personal guns. Our friend was immediately worried but didn’t leave. Only moments before firing an unexpected shot, the young man arrogantly rambled that the gun wasn’t loaded and he knew how to handle his weapon.

When our friend recounts this story today, he reminds me that his single mother was terrified of guns too, so he never received the respect lesson. He’s told us if he would have been taught a healthy respect and fear of guns, he would have been out of there as soon as the guy pulled them out.

Yes, we need more safety measures for guns. Yes, we need more gun control.  Why is it so hard to install those fingerprint triggers?

But then I think about how those triggers would not have helped my friend or the women shot by their spouses.

But maybe they would help little kids like my son.

Yes, back to Larsen. I wonder what approach would work for him. Larsen is the type who loves big reactions, especially from me.

I am reminded of the words of Heather Shumaker in one of my favorite parenting books ever – It’s Ok Not to Share

“War play is as legitimate as playing house. When a preschooler says “Bang! Bang!” it’s a game, not violence. Don’t be fooled because the topic may be violent— this play is typically highly social and cooperative, teaching your child skills in friendship and even early morality. If we fear weapon play and ban it, children may still pursue their fascination with power and weapons— often in places we can’t see it. Playing with toy swords and guns is not harmful, but your reaction to it might be. Trust your child to choose her own play themes.”

Maybe it’s not the hyper-masculine toys or the guns in themselves. Maybe it doesn’t matter if guns are paraded in the home as acceptable recreation. But I’ve always thought the culture of the home is sometimes represented in a child’s play.

Maybe it is also my approach. I can either be fearful – adding to the allure and power of guns – or I can understand the respect lesson – I can address their dangerousness, how guns in real life and guns in play are different, and offer these things in developmentally appropriate pieces to my son.

Maybe this approach will keep my son safe. Maybe he won’t be attracted to them as we cruise down the toy aisle. Maybe he won’t pretend his sandwich is a gun.  Maybe our home will set him up to respect guns.

This little figurine of one of my favorite movies has stirred up so much for me about guns, toys, boys’ development, and fear. I’m disoriented. I don’t really know how to move forward.

When Larsen has forgotten about the toy, I slip the seven deadly plastic pieces into the trash, telling myself it’s more about a choking hazard than my inability to face my fears.

Our New Babysitter’s First Experience With Us

Our new babysitter is the best. THE BEST. She’s a freakin’ champ. She can handle a toddler and three nosy dogs like a hybrid of SuperNanny and Caesar – The Dog Whisperer.

Her adventure began upstairs when Lars stopped from full motion and screamed, “POOPOO!” Thinking on her feet, she grabbed him, pulled off the brown-drenched undies and quickly darted him to the tub.

Next, she entertained him while the water heated – those pipes take forever. While she was acting like an Oarfish from the underwater show Octonauts, she thought it would be good to rinse out the soiled underpants.

But, alas, they have disappeared.

After she realized the dogs must have grabbed the underwear, she quickly pulls Larsen out of the tub, wraps him in a towel –  only to find Slayer with the brown-stained skivvies in his mouth.

The chase commenced.

He runs under the bed where he knows her arms can’t reach him. But another good sign of a babysitter is getting the child to help with the cleanup. And she did just that.

Larsen has a two-foot long grabber toy that can reach Slayer. Our naked son manages to grab his underwear out from the ferocious Yorkie-poo! Yay!

Thankfully, Slayer ate most of the poop, and our new sitter didn’t have much to clean up.

This just goes to show we can never be prepared for the challenges that babysitting – or parenting – throws at us, so just take them as they come and do your best.

I wasn’t sure she would ever return, but she did come watch him tonight! Thank you for your fearless spirit, G! We love you!


A Few of Larsen’s Favorite Toys

You might have guessed it – yes, I researched toys before Lars was born. (I’ve been known to research everything pretty much.)

Maybe it’s because when I was pregnant with Larsen, wooden toys became popular again. Those glossy, uncluttered, beautiful rooms filled with light woods next to sheepskin rugs get me every time. I have a thing for modern and uncomplicated.


And then Mike’s parents brought over a little wooden trike that all the kids in his family played with. Thirty years later, and it’s still in perfect condition.


I knew from my research that children do not need those toys that flash, whistle, beep, talk, etc.

Too many toys clutter rooms just like too many sensory triggers from toys cause clutter in the brain:

Diane E. Levin, a professor at the early childhood education department of Wheelock College in Boston, calls the phenomenon “problem solving deficit disorder.” Levin contends that such products overstimulate very young children, so instead of using their own resources to solve a problem or an uncomfortable feeling – Mom is in the shower, boredom, and so on – they apply those resources to processing the dazzling object that has been placed before them. Over time, Levin says, babies and toddlers accustomed to getting this kind of “hit” when they feel uncomfortable they may not just become dependent on having that hit but may even lose the ability to work through feelings and ideas independently or with the help of a trusted friend. Marie Anzalone, who is on the faculty of Columbia University’s occupational therapy program, reports that she frequently treats very young children from low-income as well as upper-middle class families who appear glazed over and numb, which she believes is an ingrained response from technology toys and television. These toddlers simply can not integrate the sensory overload to which they are routinely subjected; to cope, they begin to tune out. ~Buy, Buy Baby: How Consumer Culture Manipulates Parents and Harms Young Minds By Susan Gregory Thomas

My motto is to keep it simple – a simple, uncluttered room with a limited amount of toys and books.

But now that he’s almost three, he knows how to open his closet door to find the stash of toys. I try to maintain a one-toy-out, a one-toy-in policy while stating, “Let’s put some of these toys away so we have more room to play,” and it’s working for the moment.

So when he’s not outside “mountaineering” up his slide or in the pool “practicing” swimming without his floaty, these are the toys he keeps coming back to:

1. Wooden Blocks – We love the Treehaus Wood Castle Blocks or he has a big bin full of blocks his great-grandfather made him.


2. Magna Tiles – These are fantastic and so versatile.


3.  Stomp Rocket – He received this as a gift for his 2nd birthday and has loved it every day ever since.


4. Binoculars – He takes them everywhere we go!


5. Flashlights of any kind. We found this cool Disney Planes Flashlight that shines Dusty on the wall.


6. These two Green Toys are fun. First, we have the rocket that came with two astronauts. Next, we have this little boat that pours, which we use in the bathtub!





7. Magnetic Mighty Mind – This is great for travel. He learns which magnet shapes fit where, and each page gets progressively more challenging.


8. Glider Planes – They don’t last long in our house because they are made of styrofoam. We are in a “learning how things break” stage. But he will throw this for a good hour before he demolishes it!


9. Velcro Toss – This solved the frustration of Lars not being able to catch just yet.


10.  Take Apart Plane – This comes with a drill and screws so it can be put together or taken apart.


Today, I watched him play with his new favorite toy – his little hooded cape made of a dinner napkin and clothespin. I hope it will be this easy for a long time.

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A Love Letter to Larsen’s Dad

My Dearest MB:

I recently read those viral articles about how mothers should always love her husband more than her kids, keeping the husband and marriage top priority at all times. Part of me aches. Have I forsaken you to be a mother? Should I have taken that advice?

But then again, the better part of me knows real life does not operate within a hierarchy. The better part of me also knows you understand this too.

Our life is more like a carousel instead of a ladder. One day we’re on the pink pony that moves up and down being a parent. The next – we’re in the double seat that just glides along and we’re spouses. It changes from one day to the next – from season to season. We just keep going around enjoying whatever role – and the ups and downs that come with it – we are in that moment. I love that about us. You taught me to do that – to take each moment and relax into it.


You recognize how motherhood has enhanced our marriage, my personality. What’s amazing is that you too have transformed via fatherhood. We’ve learned so much together – like how to give without expecting, how to speak more lovingly, how to be present more fully, how to love our life daily.

There is guilt about not spending enough time with you as we raise a tornado of a toddler, but I just keep returning to the idea of seasons in our lives, and ultimately, I keep returning to your thoughtful heart.

You get this. And that means much more to me than some chain of command of people in my life. You understanding this is the part of my marriage I want to hold on to through the turbulence of raising kids.

You’ve only offered acceptance through and through. I am grateful.

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You’ve traveled on this new parenting journey with me, not as a follower, not as someone on the outside looking in, but as a true partner. You’ve called me out when I’ve been a gatekeeper mom.

You are redefing what it means to be a modern dad. You even took my last name. 🙂

You changed diapers, took the 3am and 5am feedings so I could rest.

You’ve hugged me while I cried as I struggled to breastfeed beyond those first three months of pain because you knew I was determined to do it.

You watched Larsen for a whole weekend before other dads would even fathom the idea.

You tell Larsen bedtime stories about “Garsen Lenn.” That kid is a major skateboarding, swimming, race car driving, scootering astronaut who loves his dogs, and makes our son dream big.

You taught Larsen the words “No matter what” so that he understands your unconditional love.

You have made my mother love you and root for you when I complain to her about our challenges.

You’ve been patient as I’ve grown into my new role as a mother.

You’ve encouraged me to write my heart out, to keep something sacred just for myself.

Thank you, my love.

It’s not always roses, though. Irritations become amplified with little sleep and exhausted patience.

In the mornings, somehow you arise happy. You are a little baby bird, chirping gleefully and loudly every morning when I want silence.

You are unorganized, leaving mounds of wires, socks, and bicycle parts everywhere when I want order.

You smack your lips like a large hippo as you eat while I want Larsen to learn to chew gracefully.

You have a large collection of hobby equipment that you always complain won’t fit in our garage every.time.we.pull.in.

There are many times I could just hate you.

Except I love you. 

We recognize these annoyances for what they are – ways to bring us back to ourselves, our friendship, our merry-go-round.

Are there days where we fight as a shorthand way to connect? Absolutely. Are there days where I am depleted and unable to offer you a more tender connection? Yes.

I’m in love with you for not expecting me to choose between motherhood and marriage. Instead, you continually seek with me the ways parenthood overlaps with other areas of our life and we expand our love from there.

Earlier today you reminded me why I will never get off this joyride with you.

As I was holding Larsen in the shower and he was screaming about how much it burned his eyes as I rinsed out the hand soap he thought would work better than hair gel, you grabbed a towel and jumped in the shower fully-clothed with us. You held the towel tightly over his eyes as you comforted him with your words.

Each and every day- monotony, mayhem, motherhood, or matrimony – I’m grateful Larsen and I have you.

While some people have their hierarchies, we have our venn diagrams. While some people climb ladders, we’re riding that carousel.

PS:  Did I mention how much I hate that you never shut the cabinets or drawers?????

Learning to Walk

I love walks. I love walking the dogs. I love walking the dogs while pushing Larsen in the stroller.

Know what I don’t love? Walking three dogs while a toddler tries to walk next to me.

As I start out for a walk, I always have a mission – get some energy out of the dogs and my mind. My body relaxes, my thoughts clear. I can’t do that when I’m chasing a little hyena and being yanked around by three sniffing noses.

Larsen saunters here and there to grab a stick, “Look Mommy – this one is huge!”  He stops to take a closer look at things that don’t catch my eye: “There’s a white butterfly on this yellow flower!” He pauses to point out a friend who races up the tree as we pass: “That squirrel is fast. I am fast too, Mommy!” He drifts in the middle of the road as he stares at planes overhead: “Look- is it Jay’s plane?”


“I was always more interested in what bark was made out of on a tree.” ~Hansel

It’s taken about eight months of daily walks to get him to a place where he doesn’t walk into someones front yard and pick up a frog sculpture, inspect it, and set it (i.e. throw it) back down in the original location while I politely remind him that is someone else’s property.  He is only two after all.

It’s taken about eight months of practicing to have him stop his body when I asked him to while I loudly assert it is to keep him safe.

It’s taken about eight months of reminding him to listen and watch for cars, to move on to the grass, while I fight back my first instinct of screeching at him to get off the road.

Lots of times he would ignore me or be too involved at studying the bark of a tree to come on.

It would infuriate me. I would say, “You just can’t handle this right now!” and carry him home horizontal over my hip as I jerk the confused dogs. I’ve had to pick him up and put him back in the stroller kicking and screaming because he didn’t follow my instructions. Sometimes these instructions were there to keep him safe, sometimes they were just to get him moving in a pace acceptable to me. Not my finest hour.

I’ve had to let my determination to finish my mission subside as I kept asking him, “Please catch up! Catch up!”  I’ve had to take him back to the house after only five minutes into our walk to show him boundaries are important, my heart sinking as the sliver of sunlight shrinks back behind the closing front door.

I’ve had to not walk some days because he wasn’t in a listening mood, and I did not hold a tempered disposition.

But more often than not lately he has stayed so close, dancing with my shadow, intent on enjoying the sunshine and birdsongs, understanding and responding to the limits for his safety. I’ve lifted my hands into prayer position over my heart grateful for these serene strolls and fascinated with a child’s mind.

He manages to be at awe with the simple. He manages to enjoy the walk with nothing else on his mind, even when his mother is loudly not cooperating.

“All truly great thoughts are conceived by walking.” ~Nietzsche

As I think about these insanely tedious months, maybe taking a cue from Lars will help us both.

He may be learning how to walk safely on the road, but I’m the one discovering how to stop my body in reverence for time. I’m understanding how to stay safe from my irritation when the world doesn’t operate within my demands. I’m mastering the art of focus, trying to close out all my daily worries and to-do lists to enjoy what’s in front of me. I’m examining the little wonders of nature more intimately alongside my son.

I say it repeatedly: Lars is my guru. He’s showing me how to enjoy my walk. Yet still I fight it. It tries my patience when he inhibits my mission. When will I learn? When will I be able to choose grace instead of reactive frustration during those times that I can’t handle because things don’t go my way? How many more months will it take me to learn how to walk?

Teaching Kids Real Things

Today was the best trip to the grocery store of my life. Yes, after motherhood it’s really the little things!

I finally got the nerve to take Larsen’s real shopping cart to the smaller grocery store by our house. I did get many stares, but sweet smiles to go with them.


I told him a list of things we needed that I knew would be within his reach. Some parents even print out a little food guide children can cross off, but I wasn’t that nifty today.

The results were amazing. No toddler breakdowns. No whining for food with stupid cartoons on them. No running around the store.

I think it comes down to this: kids want to do real things.

They want to do what we do, what they witness as important. Our adult world has tangible outcomes – we grocery shop in order to prepare food. There’s a real life connection there.

This idea – using real world activities to educate a child- is on the forefront of education. And yes, I believe even a two-year-old will benefit from doing things with a purpose:

“An important idea that emerged from learning theory and research is that students construct more useful, robust, and integrated knowledge when they are engaged in their learning and helped to develop sophisticated understanding. Requiring students to merely carry out a task will not ensure learning. All too often, classroom tasks result in the acquisition of discrete information that is not very meaningful, memorable, or usable. Psychologist David Perkins (1993) calls such information, which often results from rote memorizing and is not easily transferred to other situations, inert knowledge. For meaningful learning to occur, students need to be cognitively engaged, or intellectually invested, and active in applying ideas. Cognitive engagement depends not only on the task itself, but also on the context in which the task is situated. This idea is referred to as situated cognition (Brown, Collins, & Duguid, 1989). Situated cognition emphasizes that the activity and the context in which the activity unfolds are integral to what is learned.

Situated cognition also suggests that when students participate in authentic tasks, they acquire information about the conditions and situations in which it is useful to know and apply what they have learned. As a result, they are more likely to be able to take what they have learned in one situation and transfer it to another. Additionally, students are more likely to make relevant connections between their academics and their personal lives. As viewed through the situated cognition lens, authentic tasks engage students cognitively by providing opportunities to actively think about, integrate, and apply ideas in situations that are relevant beyond the classroom. This experience often results in learning that is personally meaningful and motivating for students.”

Larsen knows how to cook eggs – to crack them, stir them, and use the spatula very carefully next to the hot pan. He can use the blender, mixer, toaster. He knows how to hammer nails, use a screwdriver, use a shovel or rake. He can turn on the washing machine and dryer, load his clothes, and put in detergent.

These things, of course, happen under my guidance. Real things are not the kind that I can hope will entertain them while I check email. I need to be present. I show him how objects function as tools, and if he doesn’t use it properly, he doesn’t get to use it that day. We can try again another time when he’s ready.

I think there’s an important connection to teaching young kids what Maria Montessori calls “practical life skills.” I want Lars to learn how to function as an adult without the help of mom or dad as he ages. I want him to realize a home is made up of a family who supports each other with household tasks. It’s not just Mom’s job to make food or do laundry. We are a team.

And while these practical skills are important to me as a feminist mother, they are powerful in building his confidence. His intense concentration during the task shows me so.


Sometimes giving Larsen a “simulated” or “child-size” world backfires. When we were potty training, we bought this potty at first:


It was simple for him: he did his business, then put it in the real toilet, and flushed it goodbye.

I saw this potty, thinking it was cute, and put it in the other bathroom:


It confused the hell out of him. When it flushed, his business didn’t disappear. There was no real consequence when flushing this potty. It looked somewhat like the real thing, but it didn’t function properly. He didn’t understand he had to still dump his pee in the toilet, and now flush TWO different potties- the simulated one- and the real adult size one.

I see a difference with engagement when we are cooking real food in my kitchen versus his wooden play kitchen. Yes, he likes to pretend some times, but mostly he wants real things that do real work.  He is a different child when he doing something authentic with a concrete outcome. He would much rather make blueberry muffins than pretend to do so.

I saw a difference when my media studies students showcased their work to businesses outside of school. They worked harder, were more “intellectually engaged,” and felt their work had meaning. This is true education.

I believe that children will rise up to meet our expectations, so why not expose them to opportunities to do real things from early ages?  I’ve learned this through teaching, and now I’m learning this through motherhood.

Rechanneling Lars’ Need for Throwing

We did it! We bought our toddler a drum set.

Shocked? I know. I questioned myself too. I do like a quiet home.

But I am totally happy about it.  He needed it.

He’s been throwing things all the time lately. Sticks, yogurt, books, clothes, iPads. E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.

While he was speaking in a different language than I couldn’t understand at first, through his repetitive actions he was communicating.

I’m learning when he keeps doing something I might not be happy about, there may be a biological demand that his brain needs to perform as he hits the drums in order to grow. As experts suggest, he needs movement in order for his brain to process and develop language:

“Maria Montessori highlighted the connection between minds and bodies in her 1936 book The Secret of Childhood: ‘Movement, or physical activity, is thus an essential factor in intellectual growth, which depends upon the impressions received from outside. Through movement we come in contact with external reality, and it is through these contacts that we eventually acquire even abstract ideas'”

“As young children move and explore their worlds, they are learning through touch. Early bimanual training correlates with the robustness of the corpus callosum, a part of the brain that facilitates quick communication between the left and right brain hemispheres, Beilock said. This connection between using ones hands and swift communication in the brain may be part of the reason learning to play music is often correlated with math ability.”

Instead of seeing it as him disobeying my requests to stop throwing, I choose to see it for what it is: a developmental requirement he needs rechanneled into a safe activity.

And it’s been working. When he feels he needs to throw things – he now has several options: he can play the drums, he can throw balls outside, or he can throw a bean bag into a basket.

It’s not a discipline problem – it’s actually a maturation milestone. His communication is physical while his brain catches up with formal language.

I was frustrated at first, then I remembered reading the above quotes.

I’m so glad I did. Since the drums, since being creative about rechanneling those impulses, the throwing has reduced. There’s a time to throw and a time to talk about frustrations and feelings.

We’re both learning to listen, to interpret, to be better communicators.

His name is Lars, not after any famous rockstars mind you, but maybe he will gain some inspiration from the connection and keep on rocking the drums.


This Vtech drum set has a high/low volume setting!